Got my ass handed to me yesterday.

Today was hell. Just plain hell.

My mother broke down and is just to pieces over all this. Not because she is upset with me or her, but just unhappy it turned out this way.

She is worried about my X too. Thinks she is going through with the divorce for all the wrong reasons and may be headed down a bad path. I dont disagree. A lot has come out since my last post. X basically admitted she is depressed over a number of things that have nothing to do with me and wants to "deal with it alone". Says she thinks she has been dragging me down the past couple years too.

What kind of "It's me not you" BS cliche talk is that?

I resent that my mother is so upset over all this. I could really smear her name with her own parents if I wished. Maybe I should. No reason only my family should suffer. My parents never did anything to her.

Yeah, going on the offensive would be selfish, something I do just to sooth my own ego. It wouldnt make things any better for my mother at all. Right now, that is my focus, getting back to my family. She can think everything was my fault as much as she wants.