Got my ass handed to me yesterday.

Just a quick update since I spilled my guts in here earlier. The divorce is final, papers are in. We settled out of court, she paid all the lawyer fees. From what I understand, her lawyer told her to settle out of court regardless of what that took, because if it went to court, I'd mop the floor with her. The lawyer I had, who simply had one advisory meeting with me said the same thing...........if there was anything I didn't like, let it go to court cause I'd win whatever I wanted and then more. Said this after a short conversation with her lawyer. I wasn't sure why. Now that the papers are in, signed and final, she has opened up a bit and let her true colors show and its all much easier to understand.

Seems that while we were in Seattle, as travel nurses, she went to the ER with vaginal bleeding (this part I knew about). They told her to see an OBGYN STAT. She did follow up with one appointment in Seattle, told me nothing was revealed. When we were back in PA though, she had a couple more appointments with a OBGYN her mom knew. Turns out, she was told she'd never have kids. This is of no surprise to me, she quit talking about having a family while we were in PA. I thought it was cause she was upset with me, she did say a couple times that I wouldn't make a good father anyway.

So, after hearing this news, she decided being married was not for her. Turns out she only got married to have the kids. Since kids are not in the future anymore, she wants to be with different "types of men". Hence, the divorce. She is now looking for........hmmm, how'd she put it........"Someone a little less stay at home, less into playstation and more into going to theaters and exotic trips." IDK what that means.

That part of life is over for me now. A lot of long term goals being taken off the shelf and getting the focus they deserve. Weight loss, quitting smoking and school. We'll see how it goes.

Ty.

I might find me a job that doesn't require me to work nights. I can move anywhere now.